FEELING LONELY

ME AND MY PARTNER HAVE BEEN TOGETHER 5 YEARS HES + IM - WE HAVE HAD A NORMAL HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP FOR MANY OF OUR YEARS TOGETHER. IN THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF WE STOPPED HAVING SEX DUE TO MANY THINGS MOSTLY BECAUSE HE IS MORE FEARFUL NOW THAN EVER BEFORE OF INFECTING ME. THIS HAS NEVER BEEN AN ISSUE. WE HAVE ALWAYS TAKEN NECESSARY PRECAUTIONS BUT NOW THAT HE IS NOT FEELING AS WELL THE RELITY IS STRONGER. NEITHER ONE OF US WANT TO BE WITH ANYONE ELSE. I HATE OUR RELATIONSHIP THE WAY IT IS BECAUSE I KNOW SOMEDAY I WILL BE WITHOUT HIM TOTALLY AND HAVE TO HOLD ON TO MEMORIES OF WHAT IT WAS LIKE WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER AS IT IS NOW IT HURTS BECAUSE I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I CAN REMEMBER WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE WITH HIM. WITH ALL THIS STRESS AND THE FEELINGS HE CANT EVEN PREFORM IF HE WANTED TO (DYSFUNCTION). I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD HAVE A SIMILAR ISSUE OR WORDS OF WISDOM. iTS NOT JUST ABOUT THE SEX ITS JUSTSEX IS AN IMPORTANT PART OF ANY INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP AND IS ONE WAY FOR PEOPLE TO CONNECT AND I FEEL CLOSE TO HIM. LIKE NOTHING ELSE NOONE ELSE MATTERS AND ITS SOMETHING NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE ELE WHICH IS WHY IT IS SO SPECIAL ... I MISS THAT FROM HIM SO MUCH AND DONT KNOW IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO TO GET IT BACK.