i need friends is anyone out there?

[rockinu40]

My girlfriend died on oct 12 from aids. i'm in a small town here in new mexico and i'm lonely and feeling kinda hopeless. i have over a year of recovery!!! i shouldn't be feeling this way kinda suicidal.  living in this small town no women are enterested in someone with hiv and they freak out on it. i'm a heterosexual (straight) guy. my email is rockinu40 hot mail i hope and pray that my higher power will send me friends and that he'll put that special lady in my life!!! hugggggggs from donald

[Lauren]

Hi ,
I Am new here and I lost two brothers who were both straight to aids, One was in 1998 and he went into a coma and did not come out., the other was in alot of pain then went so peacefully,
I Feel so bad you lost your girlfreind  and i know it must feel real hard to go on, But You must be strong, I know if your girlfriend loved you so much she wants you to be strong and do whatever you can until she see you again., I know she is with you at times, and i do not know you at all but i can tell you are strong,. Do not let this ugly Things make you take your life, I Would not want that,,, I Can tell you are a nice person and who heart is broke from losing your girlfriend. that alone i can see why you want to give up, i lost my boyfriend age 16 he was on his way to see me , and we were in a fight. and i said something i always will not forget,
i was so upset over something really stupid, and he said he was going to  drink , i said go ahead be stupid and Die,.
And Guess what> he did.... I never was the same after that. so keep those special memory you have with your
girlfriend and cherish them....... do not do anything  like kill yourself ok....Write me anytime. I will chat with you.
My name is Lauren, and i am so sad for losing my love of my life after those words. and just recently i lost my older brother to Aids. And I Was holding his hands and i know he went peacefully, I Always have my Brothers in my heart and I Will cherish all memories i had with them.
and Never Let them out of my heart...
YOU BE STRONG>OK>
Your NEw Friend,(I Hope)
Lauren